Semester two.

Well,here i am again back in my beloved university to start my semester two.It was hard for me when i left my family.I admit that although i feel happy to go back,but inside i was breaking.I couldn't accept the fact that after more than a month being with my family ,and to always have them by my side,that one day finally came when i have to leave my hometown.Two nights before i left my home,i sat there in my room,playing my guitar the song "Semua Tentang Kita" and when i sang the line "Teringat di saat kita tertawa bersama,ceritakan semua tentang kita." which means "I remembered that moment when we laughed together telling stories about us." I couldn't force myself to stop being so emotional about everything,and so i broke down in tears right before i ran to the bathroom.My sister was there on my bed,but i think she was too busy minding her own business.My ego didn't seem to allow me to cry in front of her,i don't want to be seen so vulnerable and weak.I cried in the bathroom for what seems like forever.Tears stopped falling when i opened my heart and started to pray.

You see,God is so good all the time.At times when i needed help to move on,at times when i was so weak and couldn't take it anymore,at times when i was so close to giving up,He came,He did all He can to cheer me up.Maybe He wasn't there with me physically,but i could feel everything,I could feel that He was sitting right next to me and comforted me,He poured out all His love to me.And in a way,I could feel the strength He has given me by simply opening my heart to pray to Him.

Maybe today you are feeling weak,feel like the world has turned its back away from you,feel like you don't have any strength left to continue your life,He is always there.He feels every pain that you are going through,and He can give you much more than life itself could offer you.All you have to do is ask.

I cried because i got so comfortable being with my family and having them around during holiday,and the thought that i'll be going back to my university life,far away from my hometown scares me.I told myself that hey Lydiana you've gone through it once,living on your own without your family around for five months or less,you can still do it and with God's will,you can survive.

Only a few would choose to live by trusting God,i am one of them.Out there, judgmental people would label us as hypocrites,who only uses God's name to mask our terrible self.I have my own relationship with God,and I will not hesitate to say that i trust in Him.Let people talk,because in the end it's not about you and them,it's about you and God. 

Anyways,after He had given me hopes and strength,He gave me more than what i asked for.I packed my bags,ready to go on my flight.That night before i leave,God blessed me with yet another happiness and i could feel that He wanted to cheered me up.Unexpectedly,my family and I went for a dinner,I swallow everything down my throat and enjoy every minute i had with them.Afterwards,we went shopping and there were a few things happened that made us laughed.I'm not going to tell you about this because it would be too long.You see,without I even expected it,God gave me this wonderful moments with my family.We burst out laughing together most of the time and it overshadowed my sorrow. After that,we went for a karaoke,had a really great time singing at the top of my lungs with them.Later,we went for a movie called "Life of pi".Once again,i am forever grateful to God.This movie is really great and oh i can't describe it with my own words,you have to watch it yourself.It did brought tears to my eyes.This movie is so inspiring that it gave me yet another strength to not give up in life.

Moving on,i had a good night sleep.The next morning,they sent me to the airport after we had breakfast together.When it was time to board the plane,again i cried.They didn't saw this,I walked away as my tears were about to fell.I was literally dragging myself to walk,keep thinking that i'm not ready to leave yet.As reluctant as i was to leave my family,and as desperate as i was to tell mom and dad that i don't want to leave,something deep inside of me whispered "You can do this."  So,i boarded the plane and i slept .By the time i opened my eyes,it was 30 minutes before the plane landed at Kuala Lumpur. The queer thing was when i woke up after i slept in the plane for two whole hours,i felt so excited and was i didn't even felt any feeling of being upset and devastated.I was looking forward to meet my friends at the Kuala Lumpur airport.

When i arrived,they came to me and we hugged.And right then and there,God blessed me with another happiness,He took away all my uncertain and insecure feelings about leaving my family and gave me the excitement and happiness by reuniting me with my college's friends. At 6.30pm,we boarded another plane to fly to Kuantan.We arrived safely at Kuantan 45 minutes later and took a taxi back to our campus's hostel.I brought along two big luggage and it weigh more than 30 kilos.I have to dragged them up to my third floor apartment hostel.My friends and I,we helped each other and by the time we got all our heavy luggage up to the third floor,we fell to the floor,we were so spent,jaded as hell.Spent almost half an hour laying on the floor to catch our breath.Half rested,we unpacked all of our stuffs and organize each one of them.We finished everything at 11pm.Afterwards,we reward ourself with a mini party with lots of foods.Slept at midnight,and woke up the next day fully rested and went shopping with them.And i watched the movie "Life of Pi" for the second time with my friends.Yes,i still cry when i watched it again.Today,my class started at 8 am,and thank God i could still feel the beauty of life and started my day feeling happy.I believe i will be happy for a long time.

This is another new beginning for me.And yes i will survive.Semester two is quite hard ,with eight subjects and much more facts to memorize.I need to start studying from now on if i want to get a high pointer for this semester. 

.I am 18 years old and yes i still cry when i have to be far away from my family,girly much and a crybaby.I am only 18 years old,still young,but i am able to move forward to pursue my biggest dream.With God and self-determination,nothing is impossible.Here I go again,university's life. 
Foundation in Law semester two,i am ready.