amour propre

7th June 2012-6th April 2013.

My journey ended.Finished my two semesters in Foundation in Law and officially graduated from Universiti Teknologi MARA ,kampus Kuantan,Pahang.I am waiting for my exam result and with God's will,amen to that,I'll be furthering my studies in Degree on September.Exam went great,I did my very best ,studied and gave my all and I did it.And yes,I am proud of myself.Because last year ,everything was so different.Last year on this exact same date,I didn't even thought that I would come this far.I have achieved a lot in just one year.And I am glad,that I took those challenges that came my way and make the best out of it.I will be having five long months of holiday. Couldn't figure out what to do yet to kill the time.I should make use of the time I have,reading books and spending it with my loved ones and rest.All my sacrifices ,pressure and sleepless nights,I will pay them off.I can't believe that I have come to the end of my journey,yet there are still more to come.Leaving Kuantan was hard.I got used to that place and I love it there.I won't be going back to that place again.Because I would be furthering my studies at another place.Living in Kuantan changed me,a lot.I can see myself changing.I changed for a better me,more stronger than I was before I came to Kuantan.I met people,made friends and I won't forget each one of them.When I came there,I cried so badly the first few weeks I was there,but then when i am about to leave that place,I cried,I don't want to go home.Because what I had,what I've been through in Kuantan,I never want it to end.Knowing that I won't get to be in that place again kills me.Friends that i have,some of them,I know I will not get a chance to meet them again.I left with a heavy heart,a lump in my throat,almost cried but I held back my tears.Back to old life I suppose.Staying at home,doing whatever I can to pass the time.I feel empty ,frankly speaking.So empty . I wish I could go back to Kuantan and study and live my life as a student,a busy life.When I am at home,nothing to do apart from lazying around,I feel this emptiness and I know depression will overwhelm me soon.I need my friends,friends that I have back at Kuantan.I need to go to class,to fool around ,to attend classes,do all the works,go out and have fun with them.I miss it.

However,life goes on,as people always said.Life goes on.I will never forget this little part in my life,Kuantan,and that little part in my life is called happiness.I am home,people.And I am still finding the cure for this emptiness.Soon,I will.