We all have something in common.
We all have that day when all we want to do is to run away from all the people around us.
We all have that day when all we need is to be alone.
ALONE.
I can say that i am pretty much empty inside,i don't feel a thing,and i will never allow anyone to fill this emptiness.
Because i love being alone,i love being free from anyone,i love this emptiness that i have in me. I am enjoying it.
You might ask,why? Why do i prefer to be alone? simple.
Because i want to avoid getting myself hurt again.
Because i want to avoid getting myself hurt again.
Truth be told,i am not boasting about me being single as there's no actual reason but come to think of it,i do love my single life.Being single doesn't give me any negative impacts so far. I choose to be like this,i choose to not tied to anyone,i choose to be single.
I have issues.When i am not in a relationship with someone,everything around me which are related to love stuffs despise me much.I detest it when i sees couples holding hands and hugging at the public.Go get a room,you monsters. I don't have any idea on why should i get pissed off whenever i see other couples doing all those sweet stuffs and when i witnessed it with my two freaking eyeballs,i usually get disgusted.Maybe it's because of this grudge that i hold inside me,maybe it's because of my relationship didn't worked out.Maybe that's why i stopped loving people,i stopped being in love.
I am surrounded by people everyday yet i still feel alone.Sometimes i want to run away and just be in a place where all the people around me are unknown strangers.Maybe i am out of my mind but it's true,i tend to be alone and feel alone because i want to feel that way,i want to be that way.Not relying on someone,being able to fully relying on myself is something which i consider as a privilege for me.
People would never choose to be alone,people urged themselves to be with someone who can complete their life.Unlike me.
Well maybe i am just a person who are already immune to loneliness since i have no one.Being alone doesn't troubled me that much. I am still happy and am still alive,still breathing.
Today's class ended early and i ran away from people.I switched off my handphone.I went to places alone because i just needed time for myself.I needed to deal with the emptiness in me by being alone.And i learnt one thing which is rather insane.I managed to complete this emptiness in me by being alone,by giving some time for myself to be alone,without the existence of other people that i know around me.
And it feels great.
I have issues.When i am not in a relationship with someone,everything around me which are related to love stuffs despise me much.I detest it when i sees couples holding hands and hugging at the public.Go get a room,you monsters. I don't have any idea on why should i get pissed off whenever i see other couples doing all those sweet stuffs and when i witnessed it with my two freaking eyeballs,i usually get disgusted.Maybe it's because of this grudge that i hold inside me,maybe it's because of my relationship didn't worked out.Maybe that's why i stopped loving people,i stopped being in love.
I am surrounded by people everyday yet i still feel alone.Sometimes i want to run away and just be in a place where all the people around me are unknown strangers.Maybe i am out of my mind but it's true,i tend to be alone and feel alone because i want to feel that way,i want to be that way.Not relying on someone,being able to fully relying on myself is something which i consider as a privilege for me.
People would never choose to be alone,people urged themselves to be with someone who can complete their life.Unlike me.
Well maybe i am just a person who are already immune to loneliness since i have no one.Being alone doesn't troubled me that much. I am still happy and am still alive,still breathing.
Today's class ended early and i ran away from people.I switched off my handphone.I went to places alone because i just needed time for myself.I needed to deal with the emptiness in me by being alone.And i learnt one thing which is rather insane.I managed to complete this emptiness in me by being alone,by giving some time for myself to be alone,without the existence of other people that i know around me.
And it feels great.
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