I'm 18.

Happy Birthday to me.

Today,i had a wonderful day.

I spent my day gathering with all those animals and both small and big creatures in a confidential birthday party.It was fun,we even invited all those zombies and all and we made a good pair.They are friendly indeed.

NAAAHH.

Lydiana,you are babbling again.

So,the main point is i am officially 18.

well, doesn't changed anything,does it?

Age is just a number. I am still the same person as yesterday. People said those stupid remarks like " today is my birthday,yayy i am a whole new person!" Bitch,i would gladly slap your freaking head. It's your birthday and it is just a plus one to your age number,it's not like the moment the clock strikes 12,you'll suddenly transformed into another person. 

Since this week is study week,i stayed up almost every night to study.Around 12am,as i sat there reading my book like an absolute nerd,my friends surprised me by singing Happy Birthday song to me.They are a bunch of sweethearts and i love all of them .

I spent my birthday in front of books ,books and more books.I wanted to go out so i went out,alone,again at night.I went to the mall and bought myself a bottle of perfume which i have been wanting for a long time and went to karaoke.

Sometimes being alone isn't that bad once you get used to it.

I have been spending time with myself for quite some time and as days goes by i am slowly adapting myself with lonesome.People asked why did i choose to be alone when i have friends that i can hang out with.People asked am i okay? Well,since i am still breathing,i am okay.That is my definition of "okay".Don't you ever ask me how im doing,im living,im fine,so hush. 

Moving on,there are no reason why i should be happy today.But since it is my birthday,it adds up a little spark to my day even though today is just the same with any other day. I was given heaps of birthday wishes from friends on twitter and facebook. Good enough ,i suppose. Well,at least,it did made me smile,knowing that there are people out there who actually doesn't matter to waste their time wishing me a happy birthday.

He is the first one who wished me,the very first one.I have much to talk about this here but since he demands me to stop talking about him in my blog,so i should shut the fuck up.Too bad,all the things that i want to say about you are actually good things.

In the end of the day,i wandered alone,got lost,asked strangers for directions and luckily they were nice enough to help.My handphone was out of battery and i lost contact with people.I managed to find my way back to my college and i walked back.It was not bad after all,i was accompanied by whatever shadows that lurked around.I became good friends with darkness and shadows under the moonlight on my way back to my college.I talked to myself,had fun jumping around like an idiot,got honed by a few cars because i put my hair down pretended to be a ghost. Had a good laugh with myself today and i am content with being lonely.

Because that's when i get to realize that i can survive without anyone else and i realized that i love myself even more.

I am loving myself even more,now that's a good start for a 18 year old lady.