Life.

I myself am entirely made of flaws,stitched together with good intentions.

I made mistakes,yes uncountable mistakes in my life.But I learnt from them.I have to say life creeps most of us out like hell but either way we have to strive to survive. Life has tricked me to walk in different path that goes against what I should have done ,I made mistakes and it taught me a lot of lessons in life and I know in the end those mistakes and lessons that I learnt are what makes me who I am today.

Life has no limits for anything. 

 Even how bad it is, don’t always think that life is always about pain. Somehow it’s more to it than that.Everyone knows that life is fair for all human,but they are just too afraid to admit and accept that life will give you ups and also downs.Think of it this way, every mess that happens in your life have a way to give you happiness in the end,am I right?The one that worth your thousand tears, your million frowns and your hundred pieces of broken heart. Happiness existed too you know. 

 Living my life has been heart throbbing, knees shaking and every other daunting feeling I felt.

 Not too long ago,when I finished my high school,

I was given the biggest responsibility I never carried in my whole life,the responsibility to decides for my future,to decides who I want to be ten years from now.

I realize that every single step I'm about to make have its risk. I have to explore it all on my own.I was never a fan of challenges,I never love challenges.Back then,I prefer staying in my own comfort zone,and I don't want to try new things and go to new places because I was too scared.

And for a person who don't love challenges like me back then,I have to say that life was not my favorite game to play.

But I have to,because I have to continue living,to do what I have to do,and to move on.I figured that whether I like it or not,moving on is not optional,it is a requirement to keep on living.It was hard at the beginning,but the moment I stepped out of my comfort zone,I stopped whining.

When I go out there on my own,when I decided to leave my hometown at the young age of 18 to pursue my biggest dreams,realization finally hit me,I stopped whining about life being so unfair,I stopped whining about why am I supposed to go far away from my hometown to study in a place where I barely know anyone ,I stopped whining because I realize that whining won’t take me anywhere but where I am right now.

Of course I was scared at first,I was so young to be sent away on my own,I cried a lot and I missed my old life,wishing that I could have my old life back,living in my hometown with my family.But I have to move on,to do what I have to do. 

I met new people,went to new places,I studied and I succeed,and I went home with victory.And to see that smile on my mom and dad's face,are everything I want.When I realized I made my parents proud,I forgot all the hardships that I have to go through,I forgot all those tears ,I forgot how weak I was at the beginning.Oh how grateful I am ,if life's a human,I would give a big hug and say thank you.And yes ,thank you God.

When I got home after finishing my foundation studies,I sat down with my siblings and little cousins and I told them my stories,about what I have gone through and when I told them those stories,I started my story telling them about how hard it was at the beginning,and I end my story telling them about what I have achieved in life,about the friends that I made ,about the places that I went to, about my experiences that I obtained resulting from the simple decision that I made,when I decided to leave my hometown one year ago.

I remember crying crying and crying when I went there.

I remember the pressure of studying and trying to get good grades.

I remember how hard it was for me to make friends with people from different places.

I remember staying up late at night to study for exams.

I remember running to the balcony and cried because I missed my family so much.

I remember how hard it was to get used to the new environment,living in the hostel,to take care of my own stuffs,to make my own bed,wash my own clothes and all.

I remember how hard it was to fit in with certain groups of people.

I remembered being bullied.

I remember being called names and being mocked by those mean girls.

I remember I fell down and sprained my foot and how hurt it was,to dragged myself to the hospital,lying on my bed for one whole week,unable to attend any classes.

I remember when my bag got snatched,lost all of my valuable stuffs and I remembered crying and panicking and how dark my life was at that time.

I remember when my best friend betrayed me and left me alone.

I remember losing friends along the way.

I remember being heartbroken once or twice.

And then I remember all the fun that I have there.

I want to tell everything ,the happy moments that I had but there are too much of it,let me just keep it to myself.

Happiness that I had were more than the sorrowfulness that I had. 

There is one most valuable thing that I learnt in life.

When you are out there on your own,sometimes a true friend could give u a hand along the way in case you got lost or in some cases they could give you a hand to pull you down. 

Take precautions.

Don't let others see your weakness, give them nothing to use it against you.

And now I have become a person who craves for challenges in life,somehow,life has become my favorite game to play.

So go out there,don't be afraid of life!

If there is one advice that I can give you,who are reading this ,it would be this,

Take pride in how far you have come and have faith in how far you can go.