Lights.

I will give you two situations on separate paragraphs.

Funny how people say life could be so mean yet life could gives you something in return,happiness.You might be in a dark tunnel ,desperate of finding a way out because you have always believe that at the end of every tunnel you go through,there is a way out,and there will be lights at the end of every tunnel.You just have to try.Many have failed,they stopped before they could even finish their race.They cowardly say they can't do this and they can't do that before giving it a try and shamelessly they wonder why are they not good at anything.Darling,you are not trying,you are whining about the pain that life puts you through.You blame people,you got depressed,you give up too easily and too soon.You cry and scream why can't you be happy and why are you incapable of deserving happiness like the others.You keep saying that you want to be happy,you want to feel better,and you want to feel alive.However,you are not willing the pay the price of getting that happiness,instead you let it slip away and curse at everything.

Ego and desire kills.It ruins your life,your relationships and it stabs you without you knowing or even realize that it could destroy you.Most people would never admit that they have huge ego because they believe that they deserve the best,they never want to settle for less than what they think they deserve.They have a mindset of always wanting to be at the top,they have desire to do more and to beat the crap out of other people.But with ego and desire,there will be a time where you couldn't think of anything else other than yourself,you praise yourself,you brag and you will do whatever it takes so nobody will get in your way.And sometimes,other people get hurt by your action,but you are blinded and unaware of other people's feelings.All you could think about is yourself,you want to feel content of yourself,you want to take what probably belongs to other people because you think you deserve to have all of it.I tell you this,as much as you think your ego will rise you to the top,on your way up,you will have to step on a lot of people's head and there will be someone who will get hurt because your action leaves a huge impact in their life.You can say that you are doing this for yourself but in the end of the day,you can't deny the fact that what you've been doing all these times doesn't give you happiness like you thought it would.

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I gave you two different situations above.Because I want you to re-evaluate your life.From those two different situations,I could tell you that there are two types of people who could never be happy.The first one is a type of person who keeps whining,doesn't even want to try and gives up too easily,they keep insisting that they want to be happy but they don't want to give it a try.In the end,they ended up being all depressed about life because they haven't achieve anything.The second situation that I gave you is a type of person who have the determination of wanting to succeed.They push themselves forward,they are full of themselves because they believe they deserve the best and they deserve to be happy.But the problem with this type of people is their ego.Ego is their wicked imaginary friend,who tells them what to do,who tells them that they are number one,who tells them that their wrong actions doesn't hurt other people.Another problem of this people is they only care about their feelings and desire,they will do anything,be it taking away what belongs to other people or hurting them,as long as they get what they want.

According to both types,I've been both at different times in my life back then.And I believe each one of you been through those kind of situations.Unfortunately,we,the people who experienced it,never have a chance to be happy.Because we refused to try and we refused care about other people for the sake of winning against them.And if no matter what bullshit we did,no matter how hard we tried ain't giving us happiness,I suggest we stop trying.But that would be a cowardly action to finish something we haven't started yet.Read below.

A man: I want happiness.

Buddha: First remove "I", that's ego, then remove "want", that's desire. See? Now you are left with happiness.

From those words above,I figure out the true equation for happiness that I have been searching for years.

Effort-Ego-Desire=Happiness

When you put a lot of effort into something without getting to caught up with your ego and wrong desire,you will find your happiness.

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You see,life plays with us,it messes us up ,it throws us into a dark tunnel and let us find our own way out.Giving up is not an option because if you give up too soon,you will be trap inside the tunnel .It will be hard to find your way out but I promise you ,at the end of every dark tunnel,there is a way out,and when you have found the exit ,you will be surprised that there are lights at the end of the tunnel.You just gotta walk towards the light,no matter what happen.It's not going to be easy,but it'll be worth it.After what life puts me through,all the tears and sweats and unpaid efforts,all the pain that it puts me through,all the people that were taken away from me,all the people that I left,I finally realize what I did back then were all wrong,I realize I have done a lot of mistakes in my life.I should've never gave up and I should've lower my ego and at least think about other people and just be humble in rising to the top.But I failed.There are so many failures that I did in my life,all of it gave me no happiness and gave me nothing but lessons learnt.If there are any advice that I could give you,it would be this.Give it a try,never let ego kills you,and never let go of people who meant the world to you on your way up.Sad thing is,I found myself in a very dark tunnel at this moment,sometimes I want to give up,but I remember I have a lot of motherfuckers to prove wrong,those who say I can't.My intention is not to beat them,but to simply prove to them that I can.Because I am done of being taken for granted and being told again and again that I am incapable of doing anything.You have no idea what I am capable of and what I am going to do.Just wait.