better left unspoken and unknown.

Have you recently had friends or strangers suddenly get pissed off at you for what seemed like no reason at all?And then they would avoid you for a few days. You told yourself that they were overreacting or being too sensitive, or that they had no right to be angry when you clearly didn't mean to do whatever you did and in fact aren't even sure what it was.

AND

Have you ever talked to someone,but it turns out to be something that you didn't mean to say in the first place?Sometimes you wanted to say something nice to someone but you ended up saying something else, something spiteful.Some words just don't come out right.  

That happened to me,and maybe to you too.

Thing is,you know you tried so hard to keep these people,but you ended up slaughtering them.Because,words could kill.Believe me when I say,I had so many kind words arranged in perfect sentences that ought to be utter in a good way but when the time comes something malicious came out of nowhere. I, myself was thunderstrucked by my own sentences. 

Maybe someone should offer me a big cup of shut the fuck up when I'm about to speak.

I don't usually utter something I don't mean.Maybe that's the whole problem.Quiet a rare occasion I speak about how I feel,I've kept it all to myself.But when I reached my boiling point,I voice out.But I can tell you I never sugarcoat my words to scribble out the truth.They got hurt because I choose to tell them what I really feel because to be frank,I am too tired to deal with this shit,tired to puts up with people's bullshit and tired of letting myself down while making all the efforts to put them up there.

No, I do not know what I want, I do not know what I feel, or if I feel. 

Say, what do feelings feel? I am very well passed that. 

You see,my head is a mess,my mind is a terrible place.Most of the time,my mind made zero sense.All twisted,tangled and senseless.So don't bother trying to understand what I said up there,but if you could understand me,well then bravo.

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There will always be that day when you feel awfully down and shed tears for no reason but there's a reason for everything. You don't know why but you know you just need a good cry.You don't feel even an ounce of pain ,it doesn't hurt.But why.You searched for that answer,you asked yourself,you thought about what had possibly gotten into you.And it messes you up when you can't fathom the reason why and you sit there feeling dejected more and more.But you see, they say what you don't know won't hurt you, that's right.

And sometimes,

whatever the reasons may be,

it is better left unknown,

for your own good.