bent,not broken.

Funny how all these terrible things decided to hit me all at once.It's like the world has turned its back on me,refusing to show even the slightest bit of sympathy.There are so many tears these days,so many dark days and so many pressure .As much as I tried to stay positive,or as often as I preached about positivity ,there comes a point when destructive is everything that I am feeling. Another thing is,I noticed that sometimes when I am put into hardship is when I grew closer to The Almighty. Believe me when I say,when there are no lover,families or friends that could help you out,you became so weak that you dropped on your knees and just cried,calling out His name.I figured,hardships are necessary because we need those difficult times for us to be reminded who we really need. Knowing He will be there listening,is the most wonderful feeling ever. I’ve learned that no matter how difficult things seem, there is always hope.Sometimes, the darkest times can bring me to the brightest places.  I’ve learned that what seems like a curse in the moment can actually be a blessing, and that what seems like the end of the road is actually just the discovery that I am meant to travel down a different path. Even when it’s scary, even when all of my strength seems gone, I have to keep picking myself back up and moving forward, because whatever I'm battling in the moment, it will pass, and I will make it through.And I’ve learned that no matter how powerless I feel or how horrible things seem, I can’t give up. I have to keep going.  I’ve made it this far. I can make it through whatever comes next.Above all,I’ve learned that the most toxic people can teach us the most important lessons, that our most painful struggles can grant us the most necessary growth, and that the most heartbreaking losses of friendship and love can make room for the most wonderful people.I just need to stay strong for the next three months,because things are getting harder now,and I am doubling up the efforts,multiplying the hardworks. I want that 3.5 ,I need this and I want this.